take me away...

xmas, U think...it's only the worst time of year, for one and all...
all that " love and peace" time is bullshit... it is trully the time of year that U realize that the one U love U miss, a lot, and that until U're dead U won't see him, and that takes a lot of time. Useless time, if U stop the time to realize...alone, 'cause U're heart went away long time ago, now just damage and pain... rotten spaces in U'r life and U feel tired and ANGRY all the time... just take me, and let me go, let me find U again...
please...

for those who don't know it...

sweeter...(my piece of heaven:)

this one is for u, kanita...

warum...?

why do bad things happen like this? why can't one escape to another place without strings? why to care of others if others don't care? why? why?
good people die bad cause this planet is too bad for them... and to the ones that those love...

LIFE SUCKS...

4ever it sucks and it keeps sucking...more and more!!!

"they don't feel like we do
so don't let them hurt you...

just say "fuck them all"...
when you hit the floor"
LdB

karisik duygular... part II

Hoje trovejou…

Ontem sonhei com a trk…

Estou a ouvir adeus…
L D b…

Crossroad…

What do i believe? To sell or to be sellout? That is (really) the question!!!

E choveu…

Estou a ouvir stupid…

thank god for the nice girls…

E eu que estou assim……now eternity

What they did that make u sad?

Tears

two of my favorite things...

miss u to, pelo pincho...

just to pipa...

seni seviyorum!
:)

sweet...

The greatest bastard of all…

Stop all the clocks, cutt off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drums
Bring out the couffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning over ahead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is dead,
Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves

He was my North, my South, my East and my West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I tought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.


11 years now…

w.h. Auden

karisik duygular...

One month has passed, but still not much has changed, at least, not as I wanted to change...
I saw my friends and I met some new ones and, apparently, everything is going ok, except when it's not...I ate my precious pork food, I saw my akdeniz, I went back to my school town, and waited...until today! I supported everything, even my crashed car, until today at 7:45 am! She was sad, but so was I one month ago ( and still I am), but I never thought this! Turkey is so great and still can do so much harm to someone who adores it!!!
Well, what to do, right?
Life is just like this and it SUCKS like HELL!!!

españa!!!

Three...And counting!

Snow...Finally... : )
All is closed, well, not all, just the school, and İ still need to meet the pupil who is happy with it... İf our school is closed we can not make our finals and if we can not make them then the farewell party will be postponed, which means that many of the important special persons that would attend it can not! : ( İt is really said that we can not enjoy the last days with the ones that we enjoyed the last months!...
But not everything is bad...due to the fact that snow finally, came to town!!! On the 23rd at 04:30am it started and it still haven't stop, not even for a few minutes!!!

And look at the city on the first day ( a few hours after it started!):

İt is so amazing... İ looked a fool all day with a smile and always singing! Of course, you are a fool if you go to the other edge of the city with this weather to buy...Chocolates!!!

Day 2: still snows...and the city is getting white...

Day 3: ok! Today I left the building to buy some supplies ( for those who don't know what supplies are, they are coke and Winston! After all I am in Turkey!!!)

Beautiful, isn't?

white jinhus

CEVAHIR...

Sunday is laundry day but saturday is... Shopping day!
So today me and Su decided to buy some things to send to those that we like and always remember... : ) So, we went to Taksim! Our first stop was the PTT services ( the postal offices or something remotely related to it!) and for the first time, the man who always help us not being discriminated wasn't there, but also for the first time we were not treated as yabanci's ( well, we were but ours translation techniques aren't perfect yet!) and the person who deal with our affairs was kind and he was always repeating çok güzel to us! That we understood! : p He offered us çay, even after we refused and even pills?... That we didn't accept! We managed to send our stuffs to Portugal, which is very good! Then we walked through Istiklal caddesi and we went to our favorite bazaars to buy some more turkish gifts and some cheap clothes! Next week we have to go again to the PTT! But, after meeting Julien, we took the subway (the immense five stops subway...) and we went to CEVAHIR, the biggest mall in Europe!!!Si, mori, irias adorar! I thought that we are going to Profilo, another shopping mall, but my mistake was a good one! It's huge!!!
And we just went there to buy CD's, DVD's and a DVD player! But of course, dinner time was very close so we decided to supper! Today it was, for me, a perfect mealing day, 'cause my lunch was a gato diable in now my favorite turkish place: özsüt!!! And now I was eating KFC ( yeah, I know about the bird flu, but it is Kentucky!)!!!
Well, i'm recovering the blog, very slowly I know, but i'm a very busy person. Eh!Eh!Eh!

jinhus to all!!!

Riding to adalar to take a bath!!!

This weekend me and Su decided to discover İstanbul, or even better, to go to some places that we're saying for about three months that we are going to see but never go! Now that the countdown started... : (
So, today we went to the Princess İslands, or in portuguese, as ilhas Príncipe (não estou a traduzir mal, é mm assim!)! İ went there last week but İ caught a really late boat so when İ finally get to Buyukada, it was already night, so İ returned to the traffic city life! But last week, İ was really fortunate, 'cause İ had the chance to see one thing that İ never had seen out in the wild: dolphins!!! And İ saw about 10! So beautiful they are! This city really has everything!!! But today it was different, because we planned! We went at normal hours and we even decided to see Heybeliada, the other big island! Su took with her her guide so we could see all the interesting spots!
Heybeliada: cute place, if you are Stephen King and need inspiration!
Buyukada: bigger than Coimbra, has more hills than Coimbra and no traffic, which means that you do not have the smtuc drivers! you just have this...

...you could rent a donkey but we are two conscious girls who do not enjoy with animal exploration so we rent bikes even if we don't ride for years, but it is true that you never forget how to ride it!!!
The said thing is that in the guide the distances seem very close, but they are not, or they are turkish distances, 'cause the Monastery of St. George it is not at 40 or 50 minutes away! You ride, ride, ride and when you finally reach the top you are too tired to laugh of the hugeness of St. George! İt is beautiful, for sure, but it could be just a little bit bigger! : p Of course, you have this when you finally ride your way through and when, finally, you can stop, relax, take pictures and get a smoke!!!

They are very huge islands and just one hour away! Great! But the best of them is really when you go back to civilization and you try something really relaxing and new, and kinda traditional, even if you try it in a touristic place! İ'm talking of the place where you go to change your skin or just to see some naked girls...these are the bad aspects of the....TURKİSH BATH!!! But after riding all day, really there's nothing better!!! Well, next weekend some more adventures, for sure!!!

Jinhus to all!!!

saudade...

What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?

Hold Still...

"In this little town

Cars they don't slow down

The lonely people here

They throw lonely stares

Into their lonely hearts

I watch the traffic lights

I drift on Christmas nights

I wanna set it straight

I wanna make it right

But girl you're so far away

Oh, hold still for a moment and I'll find you

I'm so close, I'm just a small step behind you girl

And I could hold you if you just stood still

I jaywalk through this town

I drop leaves on the ground

But lonely people here

Just gaze their eyes on air

And miss the autumn roar

I roam through traffic lights

I fade through Christmas nights

I wanna set it straight

I wanna make it right

But man you're so far away

Oh, I'll hold still for a moment so you'll find me

You're so close, I can feel you all around me boy

I know you're somewhere out there

I know you're somewhere out there

Oh, hold still for a moment and I'll find you

You're so close, I can feel you all around me

And I could hold you if you just stood still

Oh, I'll hold still for a moment so you'll find me

I'm so close, I'm just a small step behind you

I know you're somewhere out there

I know you're somewhere out there

I know you're somewhere out there"

little david boy